2021.11/22 人生草稿

任意寫下的人生草稿，如今兌現了多少？

我們追尋的究竟是一張打滿勾勾的完成事項清單，

還是可以不用管草稿的閒暇夜晚？

再更遙遠的前方，等著我們的那個答案，

要是問了一個我們答不出來的問題，

我們可以聳聳肩說算了嗎？

2021.11/8 Terminator Salvation

     "If we stay the course, we are dead, we are all dead!"　　

     I was in ninth grade when "Terminator Salvation" came out in 2009. I couldn't go to theater to watch it because I have to prepare high school entrance exam. (It was called Basic Competence Test for Junior High School Students (基本學力測驗) in case anyone wants to know)

     And I just finished it today after 12 years. after the setting year of 2018 was already passed. Even though the story is settled at 2018, you can tell it is definitely not 2018 we knew when Kyle Reese pronounced 2018 as Twenty-Eighteen instead of Two-thousand Eighteen. 

     I also finished "Terminator 2" in this August. Honestly I don't think it is better than T1, because I really like the 80's Sci-Fi atmosphere in T1. However, there are many great philosophy in T2. Such as "The future is not set. There is no fate but what we make for ourselves." Really love the saying. It is just like a truth leading us to real freedom in the world lack of freedom. Years we passed, things we did, who we are, are the results of our every decision. As years go by, we look more and more like our own decisions. 

     I know most of people don't like Salvation, but I really liked it. Maybe because of its atmosphere of cold gray destroyed world. This storyline should go on, until they won the war against Skynet or something.

     Since I missed the chance to watch it in theater because of high school entrance exam, this feels like a big fight back to the exam. After all, it took away my precious time, my hobbies and my youths. Maybe it was just one year, but one year was a lot longer when you were a teenager. However, 2018 was passed, and high school entrance exam was already history too. Only I was left, in the future I made for myself.

2021.11/8 《未來救贖》

　　『如果我們不做出改變，就完蛋了，我們全都會完蛋！』（If we stay the course, we are dead, we are all dead!）　　

　　終於看完當年因為基測錯過的《魔鬼終結者：未來救贖》，甚至已經過了故事設定的2018年－－雖然故事設在2018年，但聽到凱爾·瑞斯（Kyle  Reese）在講2018年時是用Twenty-Eighteen而不是Two-thousand Eighteen的時候，反而有一種濃厚的時代感。對，他們那邊還不知道整個2010年代，大家比較傾向用Two-thousand來唸而不是Twenty。

　　然後大概八月我也看完了《魔鬼終結者2》。我沒有覺得它比1好看．因為我喜歡1那種濃厚的八Ｏ年代科幻感。但是2是真的充滿了哲理。『未來不是命中注定，而是我們親自造成的。』（The future is not set.   There is no fate but what we make for ourselves.）。我很喜歡這句話，在這個不自由的世界中指引自由的真理。這麼多年，這麼多事情，現在的自己，都是無數個決定導致的。隨著年紀的增長，我們長得越來越像自己的決定。

　　這兩集搭配在一起看特別有感覺，雖然我有看《魔鬼終結者：創世契機》，不過真的沒有什麼特別的感覺。我好像還寫了一篇文章提這件事。現在真的看完《未來救贖》後，這種感覺更強烈了。我很喜歡《未來救贖》帶出的世界觀，應該要繼續接下去，而不是打掉原來的世界觀。為什麼不接續《未來救贖》一路到他們徹底擊敗天網，像是星戰的正傳三部曲那樣？

　　我知道大家都不喜歡《未來救贖》，但我真的很喜歡。可能是一種末世又冷硬的感覺吧。也喜歡把主角設在半人半機器馬可仕（Marcus）這點，藉由他我們才能看到當年曾經的不良少年康納，成為人類眼中的救世主的康納後是什麼模樣。

　　我是因為基測錯過《未來救贖》的，所以看完這部對我來說，就像是一個對基測的反擊。基測奪走我的時間、奪走我的興趣、奪走我的青春。當時的一年可是很漫長的，這筆帳不能就這樣算了。不過不只未來的2018年過了，基測也早就消失在台灣教育史的洪流中。只剩下我，坐在我親手打造的未來之中，努力讓那些早就不重要的過去幻影，知道我現在是笑著過每一天。